Somehow I don’t think makeup is your biggest problem right now. I can go into how a person is beautiful inside and how makeup, Brazilian hair, fake lashes etc. only ever succeed in hiding the real you; the you who is beautiful no matter what and does not need the approval or validation of anyone to be so.
But – and I fear in your case it’s a big but – my suspicion is that your ability to communicate is getting in the way of showing the real you.
Please, stop using makeup and start taking English classes.
Good luck with all that.